It’s probably not for the reasons you’re thinking.
Medium is a newish platform for me. It’s a busy site, I know very few writers on here and if I’m honest I’m a little bit intimidated. My skills writing shorter articles are a little rusty after focusing on my non-fiction books for so long, I’m not especially adept in writing interesting headlines and I’m also not in the habit of writing articles consistently.
Which is why I’ve decided to write thirty articles in thirty days. It’s not to gain more followers or to make more money. It’s not in the hope one of those articles goes viral — I have, after all, fear of success. It’s for a number of other reasons:
To become less terrified
This is the first and possibly biggest reason. The more I write, the more I publish, the smaller that pit of anxiety will become in my tummy. I can remember the first time I sent out a newsletter to my subscribers a number of years ago. It was a nerve-racking experience. My cursor would hover on that chimp image for some time until I bottled it and went back to the newsletter to quadruple-check I’d done everything correctly. I’d start the process again until, utterly frustrated with myself, I closed my eyes and clicked send.
Now I write my newsletter, send a quick test email to myself, make a few changes and press send thinking no more about it. I very rarely check my analytics unlike in the past when I’d check and be devastated when somebody unsubscribed.
I’m hoping by publishing daily on here that the same thing will happen. To be honest I’m exhausted by all the fear and the associated emotions.
To create momentum
Related to the above is the need to create momentum. The more I write, the more momentum I gain, the more confidence it’ll create. I am a strong believer in momentum building confidence. If you have a big writing project, for example writing an 80,000 word book, it can feel incredibly daunting. Especially when you can only commit to two hundred words a day. But as you commit to those days, as the numbers start to add up, you produce a snowball effect. Suddenly you’re on eight thousand words and you realise you’re one tenth of the way there. You can see progress…