Finally Learning That I Write Something of Value

There will be people out there who resonate with your life experiences, your perspectives and your words.

Helen Redfern

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Chalk writing that says ‘fulfil your destiny’.
Photo by Danica Tanjutco on Unsplash

As I write this I’ve published 50 articles so far on Medium.

Nowhere near what some of the more prolific writers who’ve been on Medium for so much longer have written but, when I think back to the end of March when I decided to start writing on Medium and how utterly terrified I was, I’m incredibly proud of myself.

It’s hard now for me to imagine just how incredibly scared I was at the beginning of my Medium journey. I was genuinely in leg shaking, stomach flipping territory.

I felt people would tell me I had no right to be on this platform, that I was a fraud, that I wasn’t good enough or that my opinions or thoughts weren’t valid enough. Funnily enough, as I’m about to start my next writing project, my Substack, I’m having those exact same feelings.

I felt on Medium (rightly or wrongly) that the audience was much younger, more male, possibly more clickbaity than I wanted to be and that there was no room for a forty-something woman going through the perimenopause and quietly growing in confidence.

And searching through some of the Substack writers it, again, seems to be such a young place to be. It’s quite possible that my fears are focusing on the young (and ignoring the other writers) to try and stop me from going through with my project — but I can’t help feeling that the writers who are highlighted tend to be from a twenty/thirty-something demographic. And it’s hard not to compare myself.

I don’t always understand the terminology used. I don’t always get the purpose behind their newsletters but they have hundreds or thousands of paid subscribers so I must be missing something. I try to find out but I’m already panicking about being ridiculously stupid so I don’t read the text properly and it doesn’t translate inside my head.

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Helen Redfern

Notebook addict, writer and mentor. Helping creatives struggling with confidence around their writing and creativity. helenredfernwriter.com